A little teary....

Just a quick thought;

Why is it that the most littlest things makes the strongest man or woman cry. I mean take the Elephant for example, as big as this animal is, it is very scared of a little, tiny winny RAT.....

I guess my question is; we claim to be so strong and un-moveable, and when major things go wrong, we tend to have our sanity and maintain composure, but once something very minute (or seems to be) happens, one tends to break down...............

I haven't cried over anything in a very long time, okay well maybe I cried when I lost a dear friend, but as in I'm not the emotional type that cries often over things, I tend to brush it off and just move on with life.........but I am such an emotional wreck right now, I don't know what's wrong with me!! I feel like i'm about to loose something. Can't really figure out if what I think it is; IS!?......I am such a wreck...........I need myself back someone help me!!

Quest of the Key Holder

The key holder is an oblivious, breath taking creature, with so much to gain yet so much to lose.
The Key holder has been given all the priviledges of this world.
The Key holder is: strong, a winner, protector, pleasure seeker and giver
But the Key holder has been on a quest that seems un-ending
The Key holder thinks it's an un-ending quest....but it's not
The Key holder is getting weary, so the key holder takes a break at different wells to quench off thirst, then finds a temorary safe haven to take frequent rests, but the Key holder gets deceived with the comfort the safe haven brings
What the key holder doesn't know is, the Lock holder is waiting patiently and yearning earnestly for the Key holder..................................................

...to be continued.....

UNFRIENDLY FRIENDS.....

So I've been thinking,...I know I'm a female myself.....however, I don't get "some" girls at all!!! I mean I am more friendly and relate well with boys better than girls(of which, has gotten me in a lotta trouble..that's another rant for another day)....I can honestly say that I'm really scared of most GIRLS!!!....once you offend them..hoo your whole life's secrets; out!! just like that!! hmm??

I have deliberately, been conscious of making more Girlfriends than Boyfriends in any social gathering I find myself!!! But no matter how/ what I did..girls just weren't having it...there were a few exceptions though,..those exceptions, were girls who shared my exact sentiments on most girls too!!!

If it's not your hair, then it's your clothes, or maybe it's your shoes...or it could be that you smiled too much or something!!! or it's your confidence or aura or self esteem...oh maybe it's that some guy they secretly like, likes you instead....or it could be that they don't like your walk!! or how you talk, or maybe because you painted your nails black or slime.....or oohhh it could be that, when you sing in the choir for the Lord....they get the impression that "she thinks she knows how to sing"..but she actually doesn't.....or it could be that they hate your nice car or raggedy one.....
or they Just DON'T LIKE YOU!! PERIOD!!!........

At least the ones that just don't like you, show it!!! !!
How about the so called FRIENDS who act like a friend..but deep inside, they passionately HATE YOU!!! I'm talking about "unfriendly friends" (if there's a phrase like that..permit my usage), who are just friends with you for just having a friend sake......but the purpose of the whole friendship is to COMPETE with you.......I believe that such friends are VERY DANGEROUS!! They'd kill one if they had the chance to!!! hmmm I fear ooh!!!!.....

Well, I love my friends and the "unfriendly" ones who I don't know of...I mean what can you do, but to Love!!! right?....as the Yoruba proverb/adage says; the enemy outside is better than the one within!!!

I sign off by saying again: God please protect me from "my FRIENDS" I can handle my enemies!!!! ................free to put your two cents!!!!

How Life works..

It was my birthday a few days ago, and I guess I'm just thankful to God for keeping me!!! I'm grateful Lord!!!...And I'm so grateful to everyone who called or sent me a a b/day wish one way or the other...even the so called enemies!!! As the bible says: when a man's ways are pleasing to God, HE makes his enemies to be at peace with him...hmm thank You God!!!

It is so funny how Life works, sometimes it scares me!! I have learnt that in life, whatever you do, no matter what it is, or how little or in-significant, there are repercussions for them!!!, this has in a way given me more humility, so to speak.

I got another opportunity, to do some reflection, this time mainly on who I am, and my support system, GOD. I mean seriously these past weeks have been something else, without HIM, I literally don't know what would've become of me!!!

So, I found out that I need God to: PROTECT ME FROM MY FRIENDS, I CAN HANDLE MY ENEMIES......

My emotions

Okay I've been so overwhelmed by school lately, being my final semester, I barely have time for myself, not to think of blogging sef. But anyway, I had the opportunity and time to do a little re-evaluation and reflection on life, (one of my favourite thing to do and place to be) well I got a little something out of it, which I decided to pen down...really helped me re-focus and channel more energy to my passion and purpose in life: Africa................

Enjoy;

Today, I Wept

I wept:

When I saw your face
Flashed on the TV screen today
In despair, begging for help
Your eyes met with mine,
And I heard your soul weep
So I wept too

I wept:

When I saw you crawled up
In the hut on the TV screen
And you looked up
As the camera closes in on you
Your stare said a lot,
You were clinging to something
Extra-ordinary for hope,
I felt what you felt
So I wept more

I wept:

Because I am guilty,
And I’ve ignored you too long
I made a promise to come back for you
To make things better
But I’m still here
Whiling away time
I feel so guilty
So I wept even more

I wept:

Because I was disappointed
In myself, that it had
To take a television message
To remind me of you,
My brother and my sister
I ponder on how comfortable
My life is here, and yours?
So I wept harder

I wept:

When I heard the number of
Faces like yours starving in
My Great motherland; Africa
Now the image is stuck in my head
And now;
I can’t stop weeping.

New Year!!

Alright!!! well it's almost 16 days into the New Year already!!! and overwhelmed will be an understatement. As usual, we had our new year's party at my parents new-house (mine too, so..) as is tradition...and I was amazed at how many people showed up...any-hoo it wasn't a memorable one for me personally....I was terribly sick!!!...still don't know how I started my Year with a horrible cold, Oh well!! moving on...I know a lot of you would've have made tons of Resolutions for the new year....well I didn't make any...as I realized, they are just stupid (to me, anyway), because half way through the year, you realize you haven't even taken the first step to accomplishing anything, that might have been on that list, and anohter year comes, same routine....so I decided, if I really need to make any changes, or attain anything this year, I will, regardless of my resolutions................................


I'm glad it's another year....cos pheeww!! boy was 2007 something!!! definately my most challenging year ever!!!! I was faced with challenges in every area of my life, and I mean every one single area of my life,..faith, friendship, relationship, career, academica, mentaly, physically, emotionally, family, church, ministry, my integrity, personality....you name it....anything and everything..about me was (I believe) tested, criticized, pull apart, (some tried to tarnish)..but hey I thank God!!! I'm still here, standing tall with my head up high!!!! and still got my huge personality with me!!! even bigger this time around...................................

The fact that I'm still new to this blogging thing, I'm still trynna get my head right, with it....nonetheless, I intend to share my interests with everyone who reads my blog.....I'm a very strong willed naija girl, who loves good Music, Naija of cos....my faves right now,Fela Kuti, Asa, Seun Kuti, Femi kuti, Eldee, Dbanj, Tuface(really wasn't feeling his 2nd album at 1st, but it grew on me sha....absolutely love the song dedicated to the "SHADY POLITICIANS"..4got the title), John Legend, Heather Headley, Ingrid Michealson, Alicia Keys, Lagbaja(at times sha), I'm loving Olu Maintain, (mainly just for Yahoozee only!!), NoLess!! watch out for him!! here in the states!!!. I'm an African Politics freak!!! (be prepared to read alot of my rantings on that subject).....I love good movies!!! and live to make fun of naija un-edited english movies, where I can see and hear the production crew along with the actors!!!! lol!!!........I love to talk to people, (randomly..I don't think there' anything wrong in that).....I Love the entertainment industry, as much as I love Politics,................reason why yall should stay tuned to this blog??!!?? well let me tell you, why!!...well why not?..there shouldn't be a reason to, or not to...just stay tuned!!!! PERIOD!!!...and oh!! watch out for my mini series talk show on Youtube!!! and local t.v stations for those in the Twin cities area!! ya hearrrd!!!hee hee...okay, I think that's enough self centering......well hopefully I get more bloggers and people to read these rants..till then hmm I guess it's adios!! hasta luego!!!!...............ki Olorun so wa ka yo ola ooo!!!! (for my yoruba peeps!!!)